Perfect Frequency
Waaaaaaah… Worship leader told me that on the soundboard chart, I have perfect frequency. Waaaaaaah… It’s very nice to know. 
Me & my narcissim. You wanna smack me? Hahaha…
It’s just good to know… :J
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I am getting to see that even though many people don’t show it, most are insecure on some levels, at one point or another.
The severity of it probably isn’t enough to paralyse someone. Unlike yours truly here.
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Today’s reading of ODJ was a good wake up call for me… In fact, a lot of materials that I have been reading lately have been pointing me back to keeping focus on my ‘Goal’.
What’s our ultimate Goal in life? What is MY goal? I’ve allowed myself excuses & weakness to sneak in, creating havoc in my mind. I’ve allowed myself to be derailed & got upset & obssessed over silly things.
Where was my sight? On myself. When I allow myself to wallow, I’m focussing on myself. When I am insecure & worried abt how others see me, I’m thinking solely on myself.
When I give myself excuses like, ‘but…’ ‘what if…’ ‘No, I don’t think so’, Before I’ve even allowed myself to try & see what happens, I’ve defeated myself.
I should learn to wipe out the negative words from my vocabulary & use them only when necessary. Simply just go… in faith.
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I read a report this morning about how some people think that being depressed is actually good & can be used in a good way for therapeutic purposes. It argues that when a depressed person ruminates over a certain matter, the thoughts are directed & therefore analytic & will be able to come to solution.
The debate is that more often than not, while it is true that a depressed person ruminates, the thoughts are never focussed & a solution may never be found.
I have to agree with the latter.
How can depression be good? For a moment, I thought that people are actually becoming more sympathetic toward the depressed. While I appreciate the sentiment (me, an experienced ‘depresser’ previously), I do hope that depression will not be ‘glorified’ in future.
Depression can be debilitating. For the clinically diagnosed cases, medications are given & it affects their lives forever. I’ve seen people looking stoned & feeling ill from the effects of it. And most onlookers just don’t ever get that they are actually ill.
For people who are undiagnosed, it can be as bad. Even if we don’t have to suffer the side effects of the medications, the battles in one’s mind are enough to drive one to the edge of life.
Not exactly fun, is it?
Later.
an insecure narcissistic? WHOA.
what? That’s a good combo! Hahaha…
You should be happy that you have perfect frequency. My ability to sing is very, very bad. It is good he told you, I think people should learn to be freer with praise and compliments.
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YEp, most people are very insecure, but they won’t admit it – sometimes, n ot even to themselves.
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When we are down, it is hard to think outside ourselves. I think this is because we are social beings and really need others. The problem is that when others enter into our lives, it is rarely about us, but about them – “We need another person to to play bridge.” or “I’m moving, can you help?” or “Could you babysit my kids?” or … well, you get the point.
How many poeple enter our lives with: “Is there anything I could help you with?”. Not because we are sick, or broke our leg, or are suffering some existential angst, but because they care about us as a person. Far too infrequently for my tastes.
I’ll admit, I’m no saint in this regard, but I try.
richard, cannot agree more. People should be freer to give genuine compliments & feedback.
Hmm, ur second point was food for thought. Truly, most of the time, we don’t ask what we can do for others but what others can do for us.
I think humans have an innate selfishness since the Fall.
We can be selfish … or maybe we are more self-centered and the needs of others doesn’t really come into our minds.
Of course, in wanting to help others we have to be careful about not being annoying – many people are perfectly capable of looking after themselves and doing things fo rthemselves. They don’t need to be babied. It is similar ot the dilemna of giving up your seat to a pregnant woman or an aged person. Do they really need it? Will the be grateful for it?